Is it so hard to do some absolutely different things?
Or I'm just a loser?
Ok, I'm lazy, that's clear. But nevertheless.

(I should alert you that this journal is about to be some emotional exhibitionistic shait.)

I have no a single minute free. That doesn't mean that I don't go out, go to parties, go with friends. But if I don't do that, there's always some work that it should be done. Life on the run. Maybe that's exactly what I want, but it would be nice to have a day I have absolutely nothing to do. :shrink:

[If you're wondering what are these things I'm in:]

1) my work. i'm a freelancer author, but I nearly lost my place in my favorite magazine. Actually I've never had a place there, which means that I'm always welcome when I have an idea for an article. But a new idea is almost impossible, as it should be connected with some actual information and all the actual information (what happens here in Bulgaria) goes really fast to the editor's office. So I couldn't suggest anything new. For a long time. And I was tired. And I haven't heard from my editor. For a long time.
So I work now for "Education and career" magazine. In short it is "terrible design, terrible style of language, terrible low fees", lol. With "terrible style" I mean that most of the articles are in too formal language for my taste. At least I'm looking after the light and kinda funny articles. It may shock you, but I'm really able to write funny things, not like now, when I'm writing a journal in 1 a.m. in the morning. Yeah, I know that normal people call that a noon, but although I'm not a normal person, that's official, I think. Especially if we add that my mother is vacuuming furiously around the kitchen right now and I can't take some of my "Winter dreams" black tea. :/
So the pluses of my work are that there's actually no limits of the way I'm writing, cuz even there's much of formal style in the magazine, they also welcome new things and like my style. (I was astonished when they hadn't edited one paragraph which had 3 abuses in a row. And this in "Education and career", wow!! Not that I'm writing abuses, just there were so suitable... )
And this work also keeps me in shape. Otherwise, I don't know, maybe I will forget about writing.

2) I'm working at a really big project with a team of 7-8 professionalists. It's hard to explain... it's an "Armenelos University" project ? an online Tolkien "university". We'll have everything - faculties, library, music and weapons halls. Of course, it's not a university in the real sense of the word. The main idea is that we accept the Middle Earth as a real world and then we start to explore it, as we explore our own in university. So we have linguistic, culturological, historical, philosophy faculties. And, of course, the Arts one, and I'm the Dean of it. There's no lectors of course, the dean's work is to make an annual schedule and to help 'the students' manage their problems. It's just a work in team, the dean as a manager, and there will be award's at the end of the year of course.
So there was really much work to be done. The opening is on 29th jan. And I also made the advertisement materials (bookmarks 15x4 cm and little calendars 6x9 cm), which were my first try in graphic design. And I liked it much. Just as photography. So, goes to point 3 ->

3) Education. Blaaah. I'm so bored of school. We learn nothing useful to me. I have no patience to become a student. I've chosen exactly Visual Arts, advertisement specialization + courses of graphic design and photography.
So I should start preparing for my exam. It's a general education test and it's much shitty, cuz I have no idea what exactly including. So I'll trust in my wealthy general culture most. However, should review some things.

And something to add: I'm always unsatisfied with my results in work. I mean, there's always something I decide it should be otherwise, although the product is finished.
So don't blame if my deviation pops up again in your msg box ? it's just my nature. And I'm really try not to do it like this.


[/If you're wondering what are these things I'm in:]

And the profit of dA:
Not only my knowledge about photography improves, but I also train my English (it's much worse than I'd like to ). Can't believe I wrote such a long journal.

Wish you luck,
Bel.